I will not speak, for it will escalate into a verbal war
I will not flinch, for I am too numbed
I will not trust you again, for you proved otherwise

Too many wounds, too little time
Flashbacks a plenty
On that fateful night
Images and sounds ingrained in my mind
That I'll take to the grave
Together with guilt and helplessness
Looking at the bright side works no longer
Nothing seems the same again
To feel better I antagonise you
For a delusion that all was well
Call me an escapist
I wont debunk that
Still thanks to those who lended support
In this seemingly never ending tunnel
To regain a smile
I'll get past this hurdle
Somehow.

I just want a shoulder to cry on.